ambivalent
adj.
UK/æmˈbɪv.ə.lənt/
US/æmˈbɪv.ə.lənt/
having two opposing feelings at the same time, or being uncertain about how you feel:
  • I felt very ambivalent about leaving home.
  • He has fairly ambivalent feelings towards his father.
  • an ambivalent attitude to exercise